brutal only for the better .

okayyyyyy , so heres my "OUTRAGEOUS RAGE" post . im kidding okay , a little humorrrr people ? hahah . okay but on to the serious note , i'm glad everyone's just releasing everything here , we're going in the right direction peeps ! so from my side what i wanna say is that yes , A & lil A , you guys don't seem to see a problem here . like helllooo , yes , we'll all get to reconciliation and making up but we can't just ditch the cause of this whole thing and move on you know ? its like if your husband had sex with another lady then yall just like say okay , lets just move on and forget it ? it will surely bound to happen again , i can tell you that . because if you guys dont sit and talk to each other about the ROOT problem , then how are yall gonna move on leaving everything behind and knowing that it will never happen again ? its not entirely the same but you get the picture . A , you said you're inching towards what i said but honestly , IT'S FACT . i just don't get why you cannot accept it and get on with it ? i'm not forcing you to agree with me about it but just like open up your mind and look at things differently you know . look at things in a bigger picture , don't just limit youtself to one thing and stick to that . i think yall can be stubborn sometimes , lil A and A . like there must be an explanation for every single thing and yall just wont look at it like okay , how can i change and learn from this . you know , i think yall and C have been through so much already and yet its sad to say this but honestly , i think you guys just don't get her sometimes . different people have different feelings and emotions and way of thinking and we just gotta respect and accept people for the way they are you know ? you need to learn how to approach someone without hurting them . you guys are honest , direct and all . and its a GOOD thing , but i feel like maybe you guys are pushing it sometimes . like over direct and it really can hurt someone so i guess you guys just need to put other people's feelings into consideration you know . & about the whole let C and S1 resolve their problems ? i mean seriously , we are ALL like in this sisterhood thing okay . and if let say your big sisters K and L okay , they were fighting and they're not talking and you guys hang out with L more than K . yes K is busy and all but you guys seldom talk to her also then when you get to hang out with K , L gets abit like left out , like obviously rite ? cause she and K's not talking and it will be awkward so she's left out then when you hang out with L , K gets left out and you can just be okay with it ? you're not gonna stop them and say okay listen here , we're all sisters and wtv shit probs yall have yall need to deal with it and talk it out and we'll help yall through it but you guys needa start somewhere sorta thing ? i don't think it's right to say it's okay if S1 and C don't wanna be friends because yall heard it from S1 that she's okay with making up and all and C also is okay with it . We all have God and honestly , whoever doesn't want to forgive or reconcile then how are you potraying the One you serve ? i hope yall get what i'm trying to say here okay cause i used alot of examples . & i told yall that day , i also felt abit left out at S1's house on NYE sleepover . i guess you guys are so used to going there and stuff that i feel like a stranger almost . like you guys are so at home and stuff and im just like an outsider . maybe its my fault for feeling that or maybe there was something wrong with me but like why would i feel that way if you guys actually cared about my feelings . lil A , when you told me i had a annoying new squeeky laugh , i was really like WTH . i can take wtv shit criticizes but like my best friend telling me that and you were like " im serious" with your wtv tone that was , i was honestly taken aback . it's hurtful okay and i don't get why you can't see that ? people have feelings , and you can call me sensitive and wtv but thats just the way it is you know ? its like what i said up there , too direct already that it just comes off as very hurtful . sometimes you need to keep your opinions to yourself also lah i feel , if it can help a person then maybe okay approach them in a nice way and tell them . but if its like pointless then just like keep it you know , instead of hurting someone . & about L , A i told you you were a little harsh and you said you didn't mean it that way but okay its fine , like thats the whole point we're doing this . & now that L has spoken , i feel like yeah , its true . she's not really picking sides because she does know how it feels like . she knows what C is going through and she feels the same way . it's not like she jumping on the bandwagon and saying go C all the way or wtv . so you need to take all this into consideration lah before jumping into conclusion . and you must also see like why are we saying like you are closer to S1 and all like you must see why ? don't just be like "dont clump me up in a group" and all that when clearly thats not what we're trying to do . okay , don't get worked up about what i just said okay , i'm not trying to be rude or anything but once i start , everything just comes out . so yeapp . & S1 , i don't know , i feel like you've changed DRASTICALLY from who you were before . i feel like you were much much much nicer to me last time and you were a much nicer person and stuff . i mean you're still nice but i guess i just lost connection with you . like we're only best friends by name when in reality , i don't talk to you that much and i don't know anything about you anymore . when i come over to your house , i ask you for a shirt , you couldn't borrow me one ? and whenever i ask something , i get ignored ? honestly , im done with it . im not gonna ask you for anything anymore cause im the one looking like a stupid shit . in the first place , i shouldn't have asked anything . sometimes i wonder , do you have emotions ? like can you not see someone in need ? sorry if thi s hurts you but its how i feel . i also feel like i don't know whether you're a good friend or not . cause every friend that you're with , you'll end up coming to us and saying a bunch of shit about them and i can't help but wonder , do you do the same when you're with them ? do you bitch about us ? there is a reason why i think all this okay , can't be like suddenly pop into my head and i wanna cari pasal or wtv . i think you need to grow up and be a good person . you're gorgeous you know and you're pretty , you've got everything you need , life is going good your whole future's there you dont have to worry but if you dont have a good soul and heart , all this are pointless . i honestly want to see you become a better person S1 , i know the girl whom i know at first is somewhere in there , just find who you really are . find the real you . and don't give in to peer pressure ! you need to come to a point in your life where you're gonna be like "i'm gonna be the influencer(a good one that is) and not be the one being influenced by others" . if its a good influence then yea ALL THE WAY but if its not i think you need to put your feet down . and i think you've turn into this prideful person . before this , you were like on the low and all but now i can see major differences . so maybe you can work on that ? so yeah , basicly thats what ive got to say lah . i think C and S1 , you guys need to think about us also , we're your sisters and we want to see yall happy so would you guys seriously just say whatever yall need to say to each other , call each other bitches wtv , yell at each other , cat fight throw a whole glass jar at each other but after yall are done with all that , can yall just open up your hearts and see that theres still something there in your friendship ? it's impossible that you guys dont wanna be friends EVER , thats absurd . i trust that you guys are matured young ladies who know how to handle your life right . you two have an amazing amazing friendship so why the hell go and throw it all away ? S1 , GET IT RIGHT seriously . if you have to confess anything or cuss or wtv , nows the time . C released already so its your turn then yall can swee what went wrong and we wont have to go through this shit drama ever ! okay ? :) so i guess thats what i've got to say for now . sorry if this came out harsh because as much as i wanna say i dont mean it , i cant because all this just came out , im seriously not thinking about what to say or getting stuck halfway or wtv , all this just came out so you can see that im being real and honest . its hard for me to be so crude but nows the time where we all get to be 13itches and rude and wtv because after this , its RECONCIALIATION time and theres NO TURNING BACK towards this DRAMA . i hope through this , we can all change to be better friends and work on strenghtening out relationship . we will always be the 6besties FOREVER okay ? no matter what i've just said , i love you girls and its only to express how i feel cause i wanna be real . okay so im ready for the worst , for wtv comebacks or wtv yall wanna say to my face , just say it . im ready .

love , S .