It's been a while.

Hey!

How is everyone?

-S1

I ran over.. mouldy pizza.. because I have 11 toes.

SOMEONE, Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease remind me to reply here tmr! I have been forgetting all week! POST ON IT"S WAY!

From The Bottom Of My Heart

S1,

A part of me really wished and hoped that you would have done something to save this. I felt sad that every time I typed www.6besties.blogspot.com to see nothing from you. I hoped that you wouldn't be like last time that you would actually make an effort. What I said may have been harsh or may have hurt you but I only wrote it because I couldn't go on pretending that everything was okay when deep inside me I felt so much trouble and hurt. I kept it inside me for so long because I didn't want to hurt anyone or the friendship but I just couldn't do it anymore because things were about to go back to how it was again last time. Pretend we made up but actually we still don't like each other or more like you don't like me. I can't change who I am to suit your mood or your way because I am who I am. I have flaws, I have issues yes but I'm not gonna change to make you happy. You have your own flaws but I don't expect you to change, I don't expect you to please me or whatever. I accepted you for who you were but sadly you couldn't for me. I really thought that you were my best friend. I always thought that you would always be my best friend that could understand me. I told you everything. But you betrayed me. I loved hanging out with you. I look at all the pictures and I'm like damn I miss those moments. I miss laughing at the most stupidest things with you. All the boy giggles, the fun I thought I had with you. I think back of all the times we stayed over each other's houses and talk all sort of nonsense.

I guess you don't really need me or anyone of us maybe except for lil A and A. I am disappointed that you don't want this. I am sad and I am hurt. But I can't change your mind or how you think about something to please me. I hoped that somehow things would have changed. I have people asking me "You know what just ditch everything, just ditch her."" Why are you even doing this?""Why do you even want friends like this?" I don't even know how to answer. A part of me says because you're my best friend and no matter how mad I am with you, you would always be my best friend. I may have ignored you, I may have said stuff about you, I may have treated you like crapped but whenever I say I'm sorry to you I meant everything. I may have said I don't even wanna do this anymore, I don't wanna be your friend, I give up but I didn't want to. I kept holding on to the fact that one day you'll change, one day all this will be stupid and gone. But it's not. I'm in Canada now and I miss having a best friend like you. I want to tell you about everything that has happened, I wanna know what's going on in Oklahoma.  I came to Canada and I told myself I'm gonna make right to all my wrongs. But when I came here, I lost two people that meant so much to me. One was you, S1 and the other was TK.

But you know what S1? I can only do until so much until I can't do anything anymore. I don't wanna push you, I don't wanna force you and I don't wanna be a burden and trouble to you and your family. I am trying so hard to not cry right now while typing this. But if you don't wanna do this anymore then I can't do anything anymore. Because it's your decisions.
I hope that one day you can realize that I did this only so that I could have my best friend back. I still care for you. At times i ask the other girls how you are not because I have to but because I want to. I hope all is well for you right now. Maybe one day long long time from now we can look back and laugh at all this.

For now, I'm done. I'm sorry guys, I can't do this anymore. I have way too many problems of my own that I'm trying to deal with. I can't go on pretending anymore. I'm sorry if I disappointed you or if I let go so fast but this has hurt me so much. More than a heartbreak from TK. Because every little thing is pulling me down, and hurting me even more. And maybe when you guys all sort your problems out, we should just close this blog. It's no point anymore. I hope you understand this. I really do hope you would, and maybe if you open your heart and mind a bit bigger you may understand me. I am hurt you guys, I really am. I wouldn't push you guys to do something that would hurt you so please don't do this to me.

I love you all with all my heart,

C

Raincheck

So I have totally been checking the blog when I have time but there are no updates. I know I am due for a post but I cant do it now. Dont worry, this means alot and it is coming when I get the chance. I still have things to say I just havent posted yet.
In the meantime. please pray for my grandma. She is in the hospital with gallstones.  I stayed the night with her there kast night. Later guys. Gong Xi Fa Chai

time to face the music .

hey everybody :) so i seriously have no idea why yall aren't updating the blog . i mean this really goes to show how much yall want to resolve this and go on as best friends again . S1 , could you please just post something . and both A and lil A also . i'm sure yall got something to say . and if you have nothing , just say okay , i heard yall loud and clear lets move on . we can't be waiting forever honestly . if you truly value us , then just take a few minutes off and write to us . if not , i guess we don't mean a thing to you anymore .

Why is the blog dead? I hope you do know that ignoring this won't make things better or better yet go away. 

brutal only for the better .

okayyyyyy , so heres my "OUTRAGEOUS RAGE" post . im kidding okay , a little humorrrr people ? hahah . okay but on to the serious note , i'm glad everyone's just releasing everything here , we're going in the right direction peeps ! so from my side what i wanna say is that yes , A & lil A , you guys don't seem to see a problem here . like helllooo , yes , we'll all get to reconciliation and making up but we can't just ditch the cause of this whole thing and move on you know ? its like if your husband had sex with another lady then yall just like say okay , lets just move on and forget it ? it will surely bound to happen again , i can tell you that . because if you guys dont sit and talk to each other about the ROOT problem , then how are yall gonna move on leaving everything behind and knowing that it will never happen again ? its not entirely the same but you get the picture . A , you said you're inching towards what i said but honestly , IT'S FACT . i just don't get why you cannot accept it and get on with it ? i'm not forcing you to agree with me about it but just like open up your mind and look at things differently you know . look at things in a bigger picture , don't just limit youtself to one thing and stick to that . i think yall can be stubborn sometimes , lil A and A . like there must be an explanation for every single thing and yall just wont look at it like okay , how can i change and learn from this . you know , i think yall and C have been through so much already and yet its sad to say this but honestly , i think you guys just don't get her sometimes . different people have different feelings and emotions and way of thinking and we just gotta respect and accept people for the way they are you know ? you need to learn how to approach someone without hurting them . you guys are honest , direct and all . and its a GOOD thing , but i feel like maybe you guys are pushing it sometimes . like over direct and it really can hurt someone so i guess you guys just need to put other people's feelings into consideration you know . & about the whole let C and S1 resolve their problems ? i mean seriously , we are ALL like in this sisterhood thing okay . and if let say your big sisters K and L okay , they were fighting and they're not talking and you guys hang out with L more than K . yes K is busy and all but you guys seldom talk to her also then when you get to hang out with K , L gets abit like left out , like obviously rite ? cause she and K's not talking and it will be awkward so she's left out then when you hang out with L , K gets left out and you can just be okay with it ? you're not gonna stop them and say okay listen here , we're all sisters and wtv shit probs yall have yall need to deal with it and talk it out and we'll help yall through it but you guys needa start somewhere sorta thing ? i don't think it's right to say it's okay if S1 and C don't wanna be friends because yall heard it from S1 that she's okay with making up and all and C also is okay with it . We all have God and honestly , whoever doesn't want to forgive or reconcile then how are you potraying the One you serve ? i hope yall get what i'm trying to say here okay cause i used alot of examples . & i told yall that day , i also felt abit left out at S1's house on NYE sleepover . i guess you guys are so used to going there and stuff that i feel like a stranger almost . like you guys are so at home and stuff and im just like an outsider . maybe its my fault for feeling that or maybe there was something wrong with me but like why would i feel that way if you guys actually cared about my feelings . lil A , when you told me i had a annoying new squeeky laugh , i was really like WTH . i can take wtv shit criticizes but like my best friend telling me that and you were like " im serious" with your wtv tone that was , i was honestly taken aback . it's hurtful okay and i don't get why you can't see that ? people have feelings , and you can call me sensitive and wtv but thats just the way it is you know ? its like what i said up there , too direct already that it just comes off as very hurtful . sometimes you need to keep your opinions to yourself also lah i feel , if it can help a person then maybe okay approach them in a nice way and tell them . but if its like pointless then just like keep it you know , instead of hurting someone . & about L , A i told you you were a little harsh and you said you didn't mean it that way but okay its fine , like thats the whole point we're doing this . & now that L has spoken , i feel like yeah , its true . she's not really picking sides because she does know how it feels like . she knows what C is going through and she feels the same way . it's not like she jumping on the bandwagon and saying go C all the way or wtv . so you need to take all this into consideration lah before jumping into conclusion . and you must also see like why are we saying like you are closer to S1 and all like you must see why ? don't just be like "dont clump me up in a group" and all that when clearly thats not what we're trying to do . okay , don't get worked up about what i just said okay , i'm not trying to be rude or anything but once i start , everything just comes out . so yeapp . & S1 , i don't know , i feel like you've changed DRASTICALLY from who you were before . i feel like you were much much much nicer to me last time and you were a much nicer person and stuff . i mean you're still nice but i guess i just lost connection with you . like we're only best friends by name when in reality , i don't talk to you that much and i don't know anything about you anymore . when i come over to your house , i ask you for a shirt , you couldn't borrow me one ? and whenever i ask something , i get ignored ? honestly , im done with it . im not gonna ask you for anything anymore cause im the one looking like a stupid shit . in the first place , i shouldn't have asked anything . sometimes i wonder , do you have emotions ? like can you not see someone in need ? sorry if thi s hurts you but its how i feel . i also feel like i don't know whether you're a good friend or not . cause every friend that you're with , you'll end up coming to us and saying a bunch of shit about them and i can't help but wonder , do you do the same when you're with them ? do you bitch about us ? there is a reason why i think all this okay , can't be like suddenly pop into my head and i wanna cari pasal or wtv . i think you need to grow up and be a good person . you're gorgeous you know and you're pretty , you've got everything you need , life is going good your whole future's there you dont have to worry but if you dont have a good soul and heart , all this are pointless . i honestly want to see you become a better person S1 , i know the girl whom i know at first is somewhere in there , just find who you really are . find the real you . and don't give in to peer pressure ! you need to come to a point in your life where you're gonna be like "i'm gonna be the influencer(a good one that is) and not be the one being influenced by others" . if its a good influence then yea ALL THE WAY but if its not i think you need to put your feet down . and i think you've turn into this prideful person . before this , you were like on the low and all but now i can see major differences . so maybe you can work on that ? so yeah , basicly thats what ive got to say lah . i think C and S1 , you guys need to think about us also , we're your sisters and we want to see yall happy so would you guys seriously just say whatever yall need to say to each other , call each other bitches wtv , yell at each other , cat fight throw a whole glass jar at each other but after yall are done with all that , can yall just open up your hearts and see that theres still something there in your friendship ? it's impossible that you guys dont wanna be friends EVER , thats absurd . i trust that you guys are matured young ladies who know how to handle your life right . you two have an amazing amazing friendship so why the hell go and throw it all away ? S1 , GET IT RIGHT seriously . if you have to confess anything or cuss or wtv , nows the time . C released already so its your turn then yall can swee what went wrong and we wont have to go through this shit drama ever ! okay ? :) so i guess thats what i've got to say for now . sorry if this came out harsh because as much as i wanna say i dont mean it , i cant because all this just came out , im seriously not thinking about what to say or getting stuck halfway or wtv , all this just came out so you can see that im being real and honest . its hard for me to be so crude but nows the time where we all get to be 13itches and rude and wtv because after this , its RECONCIALIATION time and theres NO TURNING BACK towards this DRAMA . i hope through this , we can all change to be better friends and work on strenghtening out relationship . we will always be the 6besties FOREVER okay ? no matter what i've just said , i love you girls and its only to express how i feel cause i wanna be real . okay so im ready for the worst , for wtv comebacks or wtv yall wanna say to my face , just say it . im ready .

love , S .

Well, to be honest, I really didn't wanna get involved into any of this. I felt like it was a 'fight' or argument that I wasn't part of and so I shouldn't butt in and just let you guys resolve this among yourselves. But since A mentioned me in her previous post, I'll just let you guys know my opinion.

Firstly, I disagree with A and lil A to just forget about this and move on. I mean, there are obviously issues that you guys have to resolve before moving on, and if you guys just 'move on' without resolving those issues first, then the friendship will just be fake and pointless. If you guys really wanna move on, you have to sort things out, be honest with one another, apologize(both sides) , and move on. You can't just move on and pretend nothing ever happened, that's just silly.

Secondly, I do have my own opinions of you, A. It's not that I just blindly take sides without thinking. I can understand how C feels because sometimes, I feel the same way too. I think all she needs is for you guys to understand her a little more and be more sensitive to her feelings. And sometimes, we expect you to understand how we feel when we are busy or don't have time to hang out with you guys. I think you guys should show us more support instead of just leaving us just out of the loop like that. And unless I got the facts wrong, I don't think its right for any of you guys to talk behind each other's backs.

And whichever one of you who talked about C's parents, I do think it's really going a little too far. Even though you may not personally like someone that much, but I think you should still feel some respect for C and her parents.

Btw, yes it's true that you haven't talked to me about this. In fact, the only time you ever call to talk to me is when you need transport. Or maybe that's only what I feel. And because I hardly ever talk to you, I don't see you as my closest friend, but just as a friend. I'm sorry to be so honest, and I don't really have anything against you, but I just feel that we are always saying 'besties' and everything but at the back so much gossiping and back-stabbing until there is no real friendship going on anymore.

Seriously, you need to sort this out with each other and stop pretending everything is okay.

Clarity is Coming Along Well

Replying to C here :) I totally agree with your math problem simile. We absolutely have to take this step by step. And if there are little things bothering us we should just say them out strait away. Keeping things bottled up almost always leads to an eruption in the end. And about what S says about all for one, she has told me this also. At first for me it was to the point where it was like okayy, if they do not want to be friends then whatever.. I'm cool with both. Ya get? I am starting to inch towards her opinion a little now though. I am not saying that I have totally changed my mind, but I do agree now. We should all be in this together. I disagree with the concept of severing ties with some people based on their relationship to someone else though. Moving on to the topic of being clumped together now. Like I said. I am me. We are all friends but you should know that I always have my own opinions. Haha.. Sometimes that is good and sometimes it is bad. But in this case it is just reaffirming the point of not me not thinking something about you or whatever because of who I am with. Honestly, I try my best to stay neutral in everything. Oh, and while I am on that point.. L, I know that I have not really talked to you about any of this, but I just wanna say right now since we are all being honest, that I think that you take sides too quickly sometimes. It feels like whichever side of the story you hear first is who you support. And this may sound the wrong way because there should not even be situations that require sides or whatever but let's face the facts.. It happens. And this is not really the first time. It's not like you treat me a different way if Im on the "opposing side" though. I just think that you should form your own opinions of me. Not something based upon something someone else is feeling or something they might say out of anger or pain. I totally get being defensive over your bffs but if this is really suppose to be a group of 6 besties then I am your bff too. And this is so not a big deal. Just a small thing that I wanted to point out. I totally do not mean it to sound harsh or anything at all . It's just something that I wanted to say. So yeahh, till the next post is up, yall. (-:

she ain't heavy she's my sister

Ello maties :)

so how are you doing?

so you want to know how i feel about all this?well here it is.first of all we NEED NEED to move on and get over this and move on and be happy and love each other.because love is forgiveness and grace,and acceptance,which is what we need to remember and put it into action.second of all,i'm so tired of fight and a strain on all of  all our relationships.so if we have any problemos anybody we should confront each other in a mature manner and work it out and be done with this stuff.alright?just to let you know i'm not angry with anybody at all,i just want to understand ya'll. alright?i've been angry with other nonsense for so long and i do not not want to go down that road again so let's do this deal.if anyone has any problems with ME please confront me and wew'll get through it.



but just to let you guys know i still love you al the same,forever and always.and C and S1 whatever is up between ya'll then you guys need to work it out among yourselves.and C I  love you to bits no matter what,just felt that i should that.LOVE YA'LL!!!!Lt's get through this.





                                                               with love,

                                                                             lil a

Out of control

HEY A! Okay, so I just read your post. I agree with you in somethings but not everything. Because, how are we gonna grow if we keep shoving problems aside and ignoring it all the time? This is what I kinda meant like acting like everything's all sunshine and rainbow. It's like a math problem, you can't move on to another topic without solving the previous problems. You may now see it as an issue now but eventually when things get worse overtime those previous issue will grow bigger and bigger. The more we ignore it, the worst it gets. Like what S told me, if there's a fight between one of us then we're all in this together.

And the part you say about being clumped up with someone else. Well, it may not seem like you're being clumped up to someone but whenever I'm out with you guys and there's a fight going on I feel like you're all against me in one team. I'm not the only one feeling this way, you can always ask S and L. I just try to ignore it all the time but sometimes it's like a smack in your face and it actually hurts you know? Try being in my position for one day and maybe you'll understand why. You might think I'm being dramatic or what but seriously one day you'll feel like this. May not be with us or may be with us but when you feel it, you'll understand.

Like, I've come to the point where I'm just really tired of feeling useless and pushed around like some toy.  I don't really have anything wrong with you, A. But I don't know. Like I wrote in the previous post, I came here to be different. Standing up for myself is one thing. I hope you understand this.

AND, I am really glad that you're making effort in this. :)

This put a smile on my face =)

a friend in need is a friend indeed.

Hey Gals! Im happy to see that the blog is up and running. Even if the content isnt pleasent. It's stuff that needs to be said. I think that it is great that everything is being let out. And personally I thing that writing it out will really give us a better picture of what is really going on and how we are all really feeling.

So what do I have to say? I dont like all of this fighting for one. I really wish that we could all just put everything behind us and move forward. We are all in different places in our lives right now which makes drifting apart especially easy. But the thing is that this couldd also be an opertunity for us all to grow together. So I dont understand why we are letting so much come between us. It is true. Things have happened. Some feelings were just like stomped on. Pride was smacked down. A lot of mistakes have been made. At this point, for me, it's just like we haveee to shove past this thing.

The real issues? C and S1. Oh boy. I dont know where to start. I dont know what has happened, who was right, who was wrong, I just really dont know. Talk to each other. Try to work it out because it is only the 2 of you who knows what has really gone down. Another thing is that I do not like being clumped to anyone. I dont know how it all got started but I hate it . I dont like being clumped to whomever I might be spending more time with at the moment, and I dont like having my individuality stripped away.  I love all of yall. It would truly kill me to lose any of you guys. Then I hear all of this talk and that is what it sounds like is going to happen. No. No. No. That's just unacceptable. So what are we gonna have to do? Please let me know specifically if you have any problems with ME, the individual, so that I can do something about it. Let's take it like a project. Work on your own individual relationships first and see where it goes. Let's fix this from the inside out. We cant go around trying to mend other people's disagreements strait away. We can only be the support net and aid them and give them advise. But in the end it will have to be them that works through. Love and Open-ness, Honesty and Humility, Prayer and Intercession. These are the things we need. I love yall and as far as I know right now I am cool with everyone, but if I am wrong lemme know. Ill be praying for the 6 of us as a group and as individuals. And if you need someone to listen to any issue at all or even some unrelated problem you have with anything I'll be waiting.

 <3A

What's Wrong?

You know I totes agree with what S said.  You wanna know what's seriously bothering me so much right now? Here's my list 

- Acting like nothing has happen. I cannot do that anymore. It's always like this. We fight, we bitch then we make up and act like nothing's happen. You know what? This time it's not happening anymore.

- now this one has been bothering for quite sometime already. You know I really honestly wanna know what the heck on earth i did to you, S1, for you to actually hate me so much. Seriously. Why do you always have to bitch about me to everyone? Your mom, my friends. I bet you even bitch about me to your college friends too. Do you really hate me that much? What the heck did I do?! Because from what I always remember, I'm the one who's always saying sorry to you for the things YOU did to me. You hurt me like  there's no tomorrow. But yet every time I still forgive you, oh wait, more like ask for your forgiveness. You even bitch about my parents! You want to bitch about me fine. But my parents? You have gone way too far. I got so mad, I seriously just wanted to punch you. Leave my parents out of this. You bitch about me on twitter. Is this like your hobby or something? And you know what pissed me off the most? When you had the nerve to say that I wasn't making effort to save  the friendship we so called had. YOU should be the one doing it not me. For 4 damn years, I've been doing everything. I thought you were my best friend, S1. I told you everything. I trusted you. But instead every time, we actually hang out i get stuff like people telling me that you are bitching about me. Saying I'm annoying and all that. If you hate me so much because I actually care about you then fine. I'll stop caring.  I'll stop doing anything actually. Because I'm not gonna stand anymore for any of this.  And you write excuses like you're afraid of confrontation or whatever. Well, deal with it. Because you know what? You bitch about everyone. Sooner or later people will know your true colors. 

You have hurt me until i don't even know what more to say. You said you never really liked me? Do you know how i felt when I heard that? Dude I have feelings okay. I came here and I told myself I'm not going be the same person like i was in malaysia. And yeah, I bitch about you too but that's just because YOU started everything. Even I had to go and say sorry to your first again the other day. And in the airport you said you were sorry i honestly felt like is that even true? I'm not being rude or anything but after what you've done to me i don't know what's real or fake from you anymore. it's not my fault i've become like this. So either you explain yourself about this or all this is just gonna be an end

And if you guys actually say I don't mind being friends with S1 and C separately then I'm not in this anymore. I don't care what you say about me. Call me a cold bitch or whatever but this is how it feels like me standing up for my ownself. I don't care what you guys are gonna think or say about me. You don't even now how much pain I've been going through. and if you're gonna ask if  i'm gonna throw away years of friendship then ask yourself this first. Is this even a real friendship? I don't care if it's just one or one, i MEAN to everyone. I see something real with L and S but with you three it's like we're all strangers again. Everytime I wanna say something you say I'm sensitive or over exaggerating. AND then you ask me why don't I say something about how i feel. Tell me how now?

Why are we all acting like this? It's like everyone's so damn defensive about their self. I don't understand how all this can suddenly change. Actually, wait no. I feel like maybe it's because of all this fighting. After that fight, it feels like everyone's change. We're no longer who we used to be? Like, how can we actually run out of things to say? It's like we're only doing things for the sake of doing not because we want to. Maybe we really are growing apart. It seems like we're now choosing bfs. So whatever you know? I don't really know what I wanna say or do anymore because I'm truly sick and tired of dealing with all this already. I come here and I actually feel free and loose. I've never felt like this for so long already. I see 6 besties and I think more like 6 enemies.

So how are we gonna deal with this?

screaming but no one can hear .

I'm just feeling very very very down now . I feel like my insides are screaming for myself (if that even makes any sense to you) . I'm drained out , my emotions are just too much for me to handle sometimes . Why must life be so hard for me & so easy for others ? I'm in a place where i really cannot comprehend why things are the way they are . Yes , God is there , God is real , He knows all my problems but here i am , doomed with a whole lot of problems , drama , crisis wtv shet & it's honestly really hard sometimes . I just feel so stupid sometimes . Today , i threw away a pot , which had "fu kuai fa" plant in it , a really big one which my dad is keeping for so long . He asked me to throw away the broken pot so when B came back from school , we threw away the pot because there were broken pots in there and we assumed that was it . Till now , when my dad asked us and we really didnt know that he wanted that plant and OMG we went to look for it and it wasnt there anymore !! my dad's really pissed cause apparently that pot is like a pot of gold - the chinese believe . So obviously , he was majorly pissed off at me & i don't know , like i think it might take him a while to get over it cause i know how it feels . Imagine if someone throws away something you really really really like and adore and the fact that you can't get it back anymore ? It sucks big time , and i feel like "daisies" . OMG , i can't believe myself sometimes . To be honest , NS life was WAYYYYY better . thinking back , like yes , we have "daisy" instructors shouting at us and all that crap but like i loved who i was there . my lifestyle was wayyyy better and i feel like its nice to just be away from the family . We feel more connected when we're away . & coming back to daisy dramas and all this problems again , feels like the whole world is crashing down on me again . It's really hard to express this feeling , i have this excruciating pain , like my heart is bleeding and i'm just longing for something to just hit me and take me somewhere where i can be free from all this . My mom's just being a total idk , it's all just very annoying and hurtful . She doesn't wanna talk to me cause i'm not at the daycare helping her . i'm sick of all this . see if i was in NS , i wouldn't have to worry bout this kinda daisies . & theres just like this BIG HUGE question mark in front of me now , like where ? what ? whom ? who ? when ? how ? and i'm just like BLANKED . I'm afraid to get in coll , cause of our financial probs and i have this 8 more lifepacs to finish . I'm just veryveryvery stressed out , mood out and i feel like i can't go on that kind ? and i'm seriously not happy with my body . I really want to lose weight and i just don't get why is it so dang difficult to just shed off this annoying pounds . I'm just in a very lowlowlow point in my life right now , just trying to figure out what to do , who am i and all this other things . One thing for sure , i do feel a tad better typing all this out . I'm hanging in there , on a very thin rope . Just gonna live for today and just see where God takes me next . Almost feels like i'm going through depression honestly like all this thoughts are constantly on my mind . College , future spouse , my future , finance , my liscence , friends , studies , all this things are haunting me . I need loads of prayer support besties . & honestly , i can't believe our years of friendship ended up like this . I'm honestly sick and tired already like i honestly don't give a daisy if you wanna pick who you feel like becoming besties with and just have like a whatever relationship with the rest . & everyone can't be thinking their the right ones like EVALUATE yourself before you EVALUATE others . we all have flaws and things we need to deal with . We can all go on pretend like owh yeah everything's sunshine and rainbows but WHO ARE WE KIDDING ? i think whoever who has something to say should just say it on this blog , if you feel like you have to apologize or confess something then do it if you want this friendship to stay eternal . Think of the mistakes you have done and apologize , you won't die . I think we should really get to it . like think about it and everyone just blog out wtv you feel and if you need to apologize then do so . Life's just UGH sometimes , feel like i wanna just sjgopsrkpo'kfSOPKFOJFOEDJfOEJFOjefjfjw'FWJF'GJROPGJORJFGIOPFKEDSLFMDLKFDIFJDIFJIOSJFIOJFISOJFSIDJFDIJFOIJREJGFHRELSNLGNDLSDNFL ! I've had enough of all this , i want a BREAK . Thanks for hearing me out guys , I'm gonna just stop here . Hope to hear from anyone of yall soon , byee . 


love ,
S .

hey sweet sweets :)

so HELLLOOOO!! i miss all of ya'll tons!!i'm so freaking bored nowdays,we started studying this past week.i did two lpts.life is boring.s and j we need to meet up SOON.we sill don't nkow when exactly we are heading back to the mothership yet.we should know soon though,we have to go sort out some things first though.i estimate early February.i can't wait!i think about it everyday.i can't wait to see my beloved S1!so yea that's that,i'm left in suspense for now :(.i've been reading my bible all this week,and have stumbled apon some good stuff :)anyways love ya'll!!<3



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