So much were left unsaid.

Rest in peace, J. Louis. You will be extremely missed. 

When our mutual friend told me J passed away, I wasn't convinced. The minute I got home, I checked J's FB page to see if he really did go. He really did. I just can't accept that he's gone. My brain is still processing his departure from this world.

He was a good friend despite our short-term friendship. He was encouraging, honest, considerate and real. I miss talking to him. I looked forward to his message(s) everyday. I should have replied him straight after I read his message. I should have continued our conversation instead of procrastinating my reply. I shouldn't have neglected him.

Ugh, I hate myself.